True feelings

 What happens to me when someone press my weak points? 

I am at that age where I'm not able to find answers of my questions which popped up in my mind every single morning. I know at this age I should focus only on my studies .But there are some things which automatically comes to me anyhow. I can't do anything to stop them. Sometimes it's really difficult for me to accept them as a part of my life. Being a girl, I have to think about so many things and especially when I stepped into my twenties. Suddenly, I noticed that prospective of society has been changed towards me. I realized that one fear stucked in me. A fear of change, a fear which half most of the girls have and especially at this age. A fear that  would happen after few years. Because I'm noticing, my friends and relatives are getting married and their life has been changed completely. Whenever they share their stories I always feel a very strange commotion in me, I don't know why? But this is one of those topics on which I hate to talk about and especially with my family. They know it very well but they never miss any chance to poke me up. There is a custom in our society that we should get married as soon as possible just after entering in twenties and especially girls. We know very well what is happening in our country so according to them we should guard ourselves, we shouldn't go anywhere and we shouldn't do such things which they hate. They believe that girls can't do anything alone and if they want so they have to take permission from others. They have their own rules and regulations which we want us to follow. But it is really impossible for me to do. Because I am one of those people who don't care about society if I want to do something I will definitely do, I don't care about anything then and especially for those whose thinking is too small.

I know very well that I'm different from others. I don't need to follow anybody's rules, I always make my own rules which I usually follow.I'm a Queen of my own little world. Somewhere inside me know this thing that one day I will become an ideal for others. Because I have heard somewhere that-

"If nobody believes in you but if your subconscious mind believes then nobody has power to stop you and to defeat you. "

If you are not able to help yourself then God would never help you. So when somebody press my weak points I always thinks that if nobody is in my favour but one person is always with me  i.e GOD. That's why I would never give up in my life. I know it very well that if no one would listen me he would definitely be at my side. I will always give my best to make my dreams come true. For me, my weak points are my strongest ones.